shout it all out ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!

availability

2010-09-23T03:54:00.000-07:00

hey,

its been a while ey that i update something here... just wanna share how i really wanna be available for Him anytime, anywhere.

when people start approaching me to be a committee, i seem to doubt myself a lot.. like whether i will be good enough, will i be able to do everything in time, would i be able to juggle everything together and etc... but then again, i love serving Him no matter what it is.. being flexible for him to use in whatever situation... so to be a committee, yes i would do it... knowing that i still have heaps to do but does not mean i can't serve Him and continue learning.. i find it so useful when i was in worship.. i was able to help my friends with music when i was back in KL and to see the importance of having worship every time.. God always teaches and make use of everything that we have learned... never look down on ourselves... God can use us normal human being to do something great for Him...

But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. ( 1 Cor 1 : 27-29 )

He always encourage and letting us know that when we do it through or with Him, everything is possible to happen.. i believe in taking this step, i would be able to grow more on depending on Him and knowing that He can use me at all times... like my friend always says, "we are all His hands and His feet"... i believe that so...

Thank You Lord for always being so true to me and letting me know that despite the busyness of this world, there is still time for You to be use and spread Your words to others... continue to be with me and knowing that You will guide me through no matter what situation i am in.. Amen

its been a while..

2010-07-13T11:35:00.000-07:00

wow.. its been a while i drop a word on this blog...

i checked my result today... i passed everything but one i have to do supp papers. i am glad i can do supp papers because i got a second chance to pass instead a fail and need to do the unit again... God is just so awesome.. He always gives me so many chances that i could not count of..

especially got comfort calls from my parents to let me know everything is going to be fine because i thought i am going to fail again.. when i check again to know that i actually pass everything except one with supp papers.. He is so awesome i cannot thank you enough..

i am going to work tomorrow.. it shows i have been so busy just do not have time to drop a note on this page. maybe i should do it again.. when she is really free... :)

cheers people

grandpa :)

2009-11-20T18:58:00.000-08:00

i heard so much about him... my grandma always tells me how grandpa do this and how he does that... he sound like a really great grandfather to me....

but i never saw him.

this is like how i know God... i never saw Him but i know He is there no matter where i go... as for my grandpa i still got the chance to look at his photos and to know more about him... my grandma will tell me about him here and then to let me know he has been through a lot of struggles himself and all the mistakes that he had done from his past life... he died of stroke but the doctors could not scan that he had one and thats the reason why they could not save him..

at first i was quite angry with the hospital mistake for not knowing the cause of my grandpa's death but then again, i cannot blame them... maybe the technology is not that great yet and they are not able to do anything for him... my grandma say he looks strong even he got a stroke but because of his stubborness of not looking for a doctor and he does not want to take his medicine, thats why he went away early... if not, i will definitely got the chance to see him and to even talk to him... but God's plan... at least my chinese name is named by him....

i cannot see God, sometimes i also wonder whether He is there... but i learn to really quiet down myself and to just listen and i know He is telling me things that i need to know... i cannot be so stubborn anymore.... in no matter what situation i am in, sad or happy, He is there to continue to give me endless joy and love.... sometimes i can feel His presence and His protection... when i am in need He is the 1st one to be there in front of me to protect me.... eventhough i could not see Him... i trust Him... i love Him.... because He 1st love me even before i was born... same goes to my grandpa.. i trust him and i love him because he loves me at first even before i was born... i was still in my mother's stomach when he give me my name.... like how God knows me even when i was just a tiny little thing in my mum's stomach...

thank You Lord for such a wonderful grandfather that i have even though i never saw him... how his stories can make me learn so much from You... thank You for Your wonderful love that no one else can replace... :)

God's teaching.. :)

2009-11-10T08:35:00.000-08:00

i am always amazed how God works in my life and on everyone else's life... He is always interested to teach and not give up on us even when sometimes i am just too stubborn to listen to His teaching...

today was just any other normal jogging i have... the same place, the same road that i always take... but i actually can choose shoule i use the long way or the short way.. the short way is easier for me to reach home and not much moutain to climb.. but i always choose the long way...

so i was going through the mountains, i always find it hard for me to climb them because i will loose my breath very easily and i cannot catch my breath in time everytime i run that place... it makes me realise that in life i have some many moutain that i need to climb.. everytime i finish climing one, another is just right in front... go through tough times then rest a while then tough times again... like it never stops... but i never say to myself you know amanda, you are super tired now, should have just choose the short road... it so much easier... but if i din go through that tough roads, i may not be motivated to go on with the running... it will be just another easy way out... i will try to find an easy way out to get out of trouble... but if i don go through that trouble, i may not grow and i may not learn and keep finding the easy way to get out of the mess...

as i was continue to climb more and more mountains in front, i get tired very easily... same goes to my life... i get tired very easily and sometime i just want everything to just stop and turn back the way i came from and just say i give up... but i tell myself, i already run so far why giving up now... so it makes me wanna finish the running even more because i will be going home feeling satisfy and i done a great job... so i just kept on running and din look back... it somehow teaches me to really run the race for Him... i mean i need to focus on Him in no matter what i do... because i know that to finish this race, is to be just focus on Him and everything does not matter anymore... everything that is trying to stop me does not matter anymore... i know that only He can satisfy me and can tell myself i done a great job..

as i finish climing all these mountains then all the way home it was smooth roads.. but even smooth roads does not mean i do not meet troubles... a car almost hit me... i know he was driving fast so i let it pass me but he break all of the sudden and speed on again... i got the shock.. i almost got hit by it... if who knows, maybe i was suppose to be dead by now... but i tell myself to be more careful next time when i see all these people driving around... be more aware of my surroundings... things may stop me from serving Him but as i say, i wanna continue to focus on Him, everything can be overcome... so i continue running on...

along the road i met nice people, bad people ar just plain weird people... but they do not stop me from continue running back home... i really just wanna finish the running because the weather is bringing me down a lil... i feel very dry and dehydrated but i just kept on going... along the road, i saw an old lady passing me by... she was like saying you look good love, continue on, you can do it... she was so sweet... God knows when to send the right person to march you on when we struggle... by just some encouragement, i feel more motivated to continue on because i know i am not far away from home... i just need some cheering thats all i need at that moment because i know i will be home soon and have a really good rest..

i am just amazed like i always run that road over and over again but this thought never come to mind but today it did... it shows that so many times God is trying to tell me this but i am just so stubborn to open my ears to listen then i just run for no reason... in every little thing i do, God is teaching me something but i need to open up to really listen what He wants to teach and wants me to learn... :) What a wonderful God i have in my life... :)

:)

2009-11-09T01:23:00.000-08:00

shape of my heart

Baby, please try to forgive me
stay here, don't put out the glow
hold me now don't bother, if every minute it makes me weaker
you can save me from the (person) that i've become

looking back on the things i've done
i was trying to be someone
i played my part
kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

sadness is beautiful, loneliness is tragical
so help me, i can't win this war, oh no
touch me now don't bother
if every second it makes me weaker
you can save me from the (person) i've become

looking back on the things i've done
i was trying to be someone
i played my part
kept you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

i'm here with my confession
got nothing to hide no more
i don't know where to start
but to show you the shape of my heart

i'm looking back on things i've done
i never wanna play the same old part
or keep you in the dark
now let me show you the shape of my heart

:)

2009-10-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... finally i get to say this word out loud... waiting for it for ages... well, glad i went through it all.. ups and downs... He is there to give me strength and support.. thank You Daddy for being there for me... :)

i got over u..

2009-10-20T05:04:00.000-07:00

was going to class today and my 1st song on my iPod was daughtry i got over you... i mean now i really just wanna get over someone so i find this song relevant and i really got over you...

well, i never saw it coming, i should have started running a long long time ago,
and i never thought i'd doubt you, i'm better off without you,
more than you, more than you know
i'm slowly getting closure, i guess it's really over, i'm finally getting better
and now i'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
putting my heart back together
cause the day i thought i'd never get through
i got over you....

i am still slowly learning but i will... :)

tired of all nonsense...

2009-10-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

better no more nonsense thing starting this week bec got tons to do and end of Oct is going to kill me if i don buckle up...... my nightmare will starts in 2 weeks time where all the main assignment is due and it is matter life or death.... i better be super careful of all i do now... :)

Lord be with me Lord... provide me the strength that i need to continue on Lord... without your strength i can't do anything Lord... without You i can't do anything Lord......

true or false.. well u decide...

2009-10-07T21:33:00.000-07:00

i dunno whether i can trust some people or not right now... sometime its so hard to know whether they are telling the truth or just wanna play with ya... when i am finally fed up and ask straight front, then the truth will only come out... whats the matter with you... of all days you are telling me this now... you ( you know who you are) know better.... is always a heartache when i have to dig back the past and talk about it... you think is so easy don't you.... is my scolding from yesterday not enough and you just wanna fight.... is that what you really want... then you decide... if you still think that yesterday i am just playing with ya then go ahead.... i won't care so much anymore no matter what you say... you are just plain annoying... playing hard to get....

Lord, help me to forgive this person Lord... sometime is just hard for me to tolerate with someone like this and a lot of this always happens between me and that person... somehow i would rather have not know this person and pretent never exist in my life... it just hurts... Lord You know my weakness You know my pain.... Lord i just wanna commit all this into Your mighty hands... only You know what to do with this person.... whatever You want me to do, i will follow....

God is Great all the time...

2009-10-06T04:20:00.000-07:00

you know somehow you just feel lost and nothing is going the way you want... well, to say the truth, nothing always go the way it should be because somehow God has something else for us to work with.. all of the suddenly you will just realise this is what God wants me to do but at the same time God wants me to choose as well for He always give us free will to choose... most of the time i feel like i always make the wrong decisions... too many wrong decisions it just make you wanna give up and just forget about it...

But thankfully, God will never ever give up on me... He is always there working in me just that i din notice it until it really hit me... God always wants me to be stronger each day, can make my own decisions....... but whenever a way goes wrong, i will start to say like why does all this always happen to me and not to anyone else... why me why me... but mum always tells me this...

I let go the need to know why, for He knows better than I do...

is actually a song where my sis share with me during the time in KL.... i am slowy learning to let go of knowing why all this thing happen but to just commit everything into His hands....... is so hard because deep down inside i am still wondering why all these happens... God help me to know that Lord You are in control of everything... everything in the world Lord... depend on You.... You are the only one that can give me strength Lord..

i also thank God for the people that He has provided me... people that i can really depend on and knows that they are the one that i can count on and talk to when i am down... thank You for all the brothers and sisters around me that is so encouraging...... they really are my best friend but no one can compare to You Lord.... You are always the one i can count on and i know You never fail... You are always there to listen when i needed someone to talk to... You will never leave me nor forsake me....

ThankYou Lord for giving me things that i don't deserve and all the love you have given me... nothing i can do to repay You but to do Your mighty works on earth and to reach out to those who really needs Your love... give me all the opportunities that i need Lord to reach out... especially those who are close to me but do not know You...

Use me Lord... Here I am, Send Me....

songs in my head...

2009-10-03T16:25:00.000-07:00

there has been 2 songs stuck in my head lately.... i find the words is so true and the tune is catchy as well...

not ready to make nice - dixie chicks

Forgive sounds good, forget i'm not sure i could

they say time heals everything and i'm still waiting..

i find this line to be so true... i am still waiting for the time where i am fully healed but i just do not know when... only God knows i guess... its hard to forgive and forget somehow...

The last day on earth - Kate Miller

Is the last day on earth, in my dreams, in my dreams

Is the end of the world, and you come back to me

In my dreams

it still haunts me sometime when i dream about it.... it really does feel like the last day on earth to me when it happens... but life have to move on... i have to move on from all these ridiculous dreams and heartbreaks.... who knows, maybe something good is going to happen soon....

maybe one day it could be like this...

You hold me closer than i can never remember being love

I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this sometime

God will give me peace so that i can have a good sleep... He is the only one that can give me peace in all these craziness and suffering i have.... Thank You Lord for being so faithful to me... help me continue to have a faithful walk with u Lord....

hmmm

2009-09-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

someone ask me to keep it alive but i dunno what to write... :p

still busy...

2009-09-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

hello guys... still busy with my work so no time to update anything.... i tried but maybe a long while more for the nest post... this 2 week will be the worst week bec need to finish so many things......... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now thats all i have to say bec nothing much i can update... see ya guy...

rest......

2009-08-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

yay.... study break.. cant wait to just the whole week but i do have work to catch up.... hopefully i can finish it in time... hehe....

i wanna eat sushi so badly nowadays... i am super craving for it... cant wait ti really go back to kl and eat cheap and nice sushi... my friends even pay for me... so sweet of them... hehe.... next time so going to treat them back... i hope i can... haha... my randomness is killing me as well.. i need productive work... before i go crazy...

seriously brain not working... better get off now... :)

sickeness.....

2009-08-19T02:56:00.000-07:00

everyone is sick right now including me.... sorry for not uploading for some time because i don have the time and my goodness my cough has been killing me lately..... still coughing but not as bad as last week......

i am going to have tuition free week soon which is next week... cant wait to finish up my class tomorrow and rest properly..... haha... don really have the time to rest at all when it comes to school work and work..... tired is always in my mind that i cant get rid off and lazy has become my best friend.... man, have to kick this habit away....... Lord give me the strength that i need Lord... i know that i can depend on You.... for my God is mighty to save....

nothing much happen except my busy school work.... nothing much to update so din really bother to upload a new post.... hehe.... oh well, i tried but really nothing to say... so i am going to leave it like that for now... when i have more exciting thing to happen only i will post...

cheers....

my baptism!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-20T22:01:00.000-07:00

i did it!!!!!!!! i finally did it!!!!!!!!! haha..... happy happy me..... thanks everyone that is there to support me... so nice of you guys to be there...... hehe.... :)

me giving my sharing.... :)

me in the water...

me out of water... hehe.... :)

memorable day

2009-07-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

18th of July will be my most memorable day... will talk about this more later on... :)

birthday, farewell and baptism...

2009-07-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

wow.. a full pack weekend....

celebrated yi lin's 2st yesterday even though its not yesterday aahah....... well its a farewell for momo as well..... so its a great night....

in the afternoon i played basketball with colin and bernie at the vickery court.... haha.... it was totally random... suddenly bernie gave me a call and ask me whether i wanna play basketball.... oh well, its been a while since i play so might as well... its cold and fun all at the same time... :) later that night got ready for the dinner...... haha... everyone was there and yi ling din know we are celebrating for her as well bec we told her we are celebrating for momo..... hehe..... then it was cake time....

yi lin!!!!!!!!! :p

on sunday which is today was ben's and kafunda's baptism at subi church..... ahah... we got the front seats which is the good view of the baptism.... haha...

the middle is ben...

in the middle is kafunda...

cant wait for mine.... will be an exciting event for me and i will always remember that.. i may be having mine on the 18th of july which is this coming sat... cant wait cant wait CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!

making people feel better.....

2009-07-09T05:34:00.000-07:00

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

i love this quote..... people may forget everything that we done but they never forget how we made them feel..... its important for us to make each other comfortable and making good friends... this is how a person really remember us and appreciate what we have done for them...

we may have lots of problem to face and go through a lot of sadness, but most important you have people beside you and really listen to you..... i will always remember everyone who have helped me on my tough times and my down side or meltdown.......... its hard to face it ourselves... its good to know there is someone that we can depend on....

most importantly, i have learned to depend on Him.... He is the best listener that i can have and a great helper.... He never leaves me nor forsake me.... He is the best...... well He also provide family and friends for us to depend on and know that they love us unconditionally as well.... just like He does........ hehe..... :)

random thoughts.........

2009-07-07T19:41:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm........ was thinking about something yesterday night..... was thinking why am i wasting my time nagging to myself that i am useless and lonely..... everyone feels lonely sometimes.... just that maybe nowadays no one is around and just feel the loneliness somehow...... no one to talk to, no one to share feelings with, no one to go out with.... just no one, no one at all..... so do you guys think that i am just crazy bec i say to myself that i am lonely....... no somehow it does make sense.....

ok somehow i think i am making a fool of myself.... well, maybe there is a lot of people around and i just din pay enough attention to realise they are around....... i need people sometimes i admit that... but somehow they are no where to be found.... maybe this is the time where i really spend most of my time with the Lord.... i need my daily walk with Him again........

i become to sound crazy somehow.... is it me or everything around me made me feel miserable... i dunno..... haih... i confuse myself again.... this is no good at all..... I MISS MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!! maybe this is why i am acting strange lately...... hmmm...... but i know i have only a few more months to complete my sem2 and by that time my friend is here to visit and same goes to my grandma.... i am happy that she finally decide to come over and visit me....... hehe..... then i am going back to mal with her..... just cant wait.....

maybe its time for me to upload some photo....... haha...... but i am getting lazy on doing it and i rather type somehow..... haha..... so u guys just wait for it la..... i will upload.... one day...

love my life... for now....

2009-07-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

i love my life a lot right now because i know back home a lot of people loves me and misses me and i miss them a lot too...... they are the most important people in my life... how can i live without them in my life... i really cannot imagine....

and of course i love all the people i got to know over here in perth as well.... they are sweetest people that i can ever know... how can i actually repay for everything that God has granted me and the love that He gave me... oh well, in conclusion i love everyone that is in my life.... no matter where am i or where you are just wanna let you guys know that i love you guys ya....

especially my family and my niece... cant wait to go back home and spend some time with my niece.... i missed her growing path so i wanna catch up with her.... he can speak and walk and run... she is so cute right now and she is growing so fast... hehe...

HEY YA!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

hey guys...

have not been here for almost half of the year.... ahah.... well was busy with a lot of stuff including me going overseas to study so no time to blog at all plus i am using imited internet access...... so now its time to keep it alive again and telling everyone how am i been up too....

well, my half of the year has been great.... in a totally diff environment but i got to know the people here including the australian... haha.... but mostly i know is malaysian or singaporean but its good as well... great to have known them... plus my birthday is always super early but i am happy tat i can celebrate with some of my friends over here...... hehe....

wanted to go home in the middle of the year but the swine flu cases has been spreading around and it become serious... and my mum keep insisting tat i don go home at all.... but i miss home so much.... i miss my family and friends and plus a lot people from here went back home i feel more lonely somehow.... no one uderstands me until i catch up with a friend.... he has been very supportive and try his best to cheer me up everyday so i really appreciate it lots... he even just call me randomly and chat.... where else can i find a friend like tat... ;p

but he is no where near me but i know he is my very good friend..... we must hang out when we r back in kl some day.... haha..... cant wait.... i don feel like uploading anything for the blog but i realise it has been super dead and i have nothing better to do might as well update my blog for now on... :)

well, tats all from me now folks.... maybe next time i will blog more about my life in australia.... maybe next time it is more interesting... :p see ya guys...

love
amanda

studying in Perth.......

2009-03-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

wow, so long i never blog le..... haha....... feel so bad la...... oh well.... the title says it all so u guys should know why i did not blog.... so much to do...... i have to stay back campus to finish up my studies and also all my assignment...... haha...... once i even stay in campus until 2 am to finish up my work and get home and sleep..... if i am at home i am sure that i will not finish it at all and just lay myself on the bed and sleep...... at least doing it in campus will help more because there is only a computer right in front of me so i could not do anything else except reading and also online...... haha......

it is fun studying here so far...... i enjoy it a lot...... make new friends, meet more different lecturers, go more to OCF meeting..... haha...... its fun to join OCF really....... to most people who do not know what is OCF is, it is a club called Overseas Christian Fellowship where all the different culturer people come together to worship the Lord and praying for each other....... and also different activities for us to join like captain ball and also badminton.... we have meeting every friday night so its good...... haha......... saturday we also have activities so we see how it goes la.... haha.....

oh well, thats all from me now..... better get off going and study...... haha......

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

the atmosphere is not that exciting this year but then again, its been fun so far........ hahahah......... been tired as well....... physically and also mentally...........

I WAN MORE ANG PAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-24T08:30:00.000-08:00

leaving very soon...........
leaving on the 4th o february........ its so fast...... after chinese new year i am gone........ cannot celebrate my birthday in kl this year...... so sad....... and my birthday is on the monday......

just another manik monday....... wish it was sunday........

oh well, got to pack a lot of things and i dunno where to start........ maybe u guys wanna help out?
hahaha.......

studying..........

2009-01-16T08:36:00.000-08:00

oh my goodness............

I AM ACCEPTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am going to australia soon......... and i mean very soon.........

2008-12-31T06:27:00.000-08:00

new year is here..........

HAPPY 2009 EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!

(i am still sick..... :s)

ah!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-27T10:28:00.000-08:00

one week before the wedding........
kan cheongnya.......
so many things to prepare....... so many things to do..... so many work to finish......
one week break is not enough miss karen........ i need more!!!!!!!!
TIME IS TOTALLY GOLD RIGHT NOW........

stress!!!!!!!!

2008-11-17T00:34:00.000-08:00

my goodness.......

why is there so many things to do eh.......
wedding, project, drawing, moral, presentation, exam, essay, and don't forget christmas decoration and morning and night program........ AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

this is too much to handle.......

no wonder i am losing weight like super fast......... CRAP!!!!!!!!!!

i want to be in secondary again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is holiday now!!!!!!!!!!!!! :S

tiring..........

2008-11-05T09:24:00.000-08:00

my day was just great until i was accuse for my malaysian studies....... i got punished for the wrong reason....... argh........ well, actually i am not mad....... i think its funny........ hehe..... after my lecturer knew he punish the wrong person then we just laugh it through...... it was cool......... hahah.......

well, went to eat sushi today...... haha........ my friend suddenly told me that he is super duper hungry and ask me want to eat sushi or not....... hahah...... of course le........ went to one utama........ it was quite early so not many people there..... hahha......... more for us....... hahaha..... it was fun........ we walk around for a moment then went back college for moral....... haha........ then kit leong drop me at lrt........

my bowl of salad...... yum yum.......

we eat like lots.........

natalie!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;p

camho during moral........

continue in the car.........

fun!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-28T09:05:00.000-07:00

its been so long i never see my good pal.......... today went midvalley with her just hang out.......... hahaha........ we sat down at dunkin donuts and just chat for like 2 hour......... then we start our shopping............

hahah....... at first we just wanna grap some clothes and just try it on.......... my friend suddenly really fell in love with the dress and end up buying it.......... hahah.........

here are some photos we take hahahha..........

this is the 1st dress we try........

took this when we finish trying and just wanna take photo.......

another set of dressing...........

i like this photo

this is the dress she fell in love with.........

we hate this set.......

we both are wearing the dress that we love.......

i love this dress...... i am going to buy it soon...... :p

hahaha....... i had fun with her man......... i reach home about 6.45pm.... walau the bus is like super pack man...... but i reached home safely....... hehe..........

adios amigos..........

haha......

2008-10-18T16:54:00.000-07:00

well, have been busy with work again......... our never ending projects kills people everyday........ well, have to get use to it anyway........ sooner or later when i go to work, same situation wil just happen again......... but i love all my out come and i am proud of it......

have my room make over..... now its so nice and so spacious....... now there is place to put my laptop at least...... hahaha........ use to put it on the floor and use it on the floor and also bed.......... hahah....... so messy........ now is more neat and tidy up....... photos later....... got to go.........

yay!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-12T02:35:00.001-07:00

i lose liau 4 kg........... wow...........

from a 53 to a 49...........

well done amanda....... keep it up.......... hahaha..........

random......

2008-10-04T09:52:00.000-07:00

wow....... its been a while since i last update......... was busy all the way........ now only find time to write in........ well, nothing much happen actually......... just work,work and more work........ getting use to it........ well, went for a wedding last sat....... it was magical....... i love weddings....... its so special....... its between 2 ppl, loving each other and commit themselves to each other forever......... haih........ so fast then its my siste's turn........ i am happy to see her find the one that she really loves and commit too........ i am trully happy for her........ hope she is reading this........ love ya sis....... and i will support u all the way to the end whatever decisions that you made in life........ need my help just tell me and i will do it with all my might..........

mike and julia is happy to be together....... i know they are......... well, i am happy for mike to finally found the one that he loves........ i know this day will come but din know it just happen so fast....... now he is a married man........ a happy married man.......... well, trully happy for u guys and i know u guys will last forever.........

me with a few friends at the wedding.......

the happy couple........

well tats all from me now...... got to get some rest..........

nothing to do..........

2008-08-27T03:23:00.000-07:00

haih.......... got nothing to do this break time......... well, i had fun with my niece since she has gotten better from her sickness........ i was super worried when i got to know that she was amitted to hospital......... well, glad that she is better now........ well, have to see what can i do during this break......... i have enough rest eriously and i need to get up and do something......... argh......... frustrating................

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2008-08-21T00:24:00.000-07:00

wow........ i din know there is so many ppl birthday this months that is october........ hmmmmm........ well, to save more time and effort, here is to everyone's birthday on august....... HaPpY BiRtHdAy ya..........

well, starting yeaterday is my sem break liau....... this time a bit early because a lot classes over quite early so having one and a half week break and 1st of sept is also holiday so its quite long..... woohoo.......
well, even before holiday, i already start my shopping spree........ walau..... so long never shopping liau especially with friends...... i had so much fun man..... went sungai wang and pavillion with my 3 good friends on sunday......... walau...... i din shop till i drop but i think my friend did..... ahhahah..... i bought 2 shirt though....... i have been looking for this kind of shirt for a very long time.... finally found it....... muahahahha...........

then on monday we got nothing to do in college because we already done with our work and we just sit around and nothing to do......... so we decided to go 1 u for a movie then shop again......... we watched wall-e....... it such a touching movie and i love it so badly........ its so cute......... luckily got a guy beside me so i can lean my head on........ ahahahaa....... well, after that continue our shopping plan...... aahaha........ bought a lot of stuff again...... ahaha....... almost all they buy is branded stuff....... ahahha...... well, i also not bad i bought a bag also......... its so nice....... always wanted a big bag and nice wan so that i can put everything in without carying it on my hand........

then we went for dinner....... some of our friends came and join us....... then all of us went for dinner..... ahahah......... we chatted for a while then walk around to wait for my dad to come pick me up... walau...... spend the whole afternoon and night at 1 u man...... so the tired........

then the next day after we summit our archiving, then we went to have lunch at 1 u again...... i hope they don recognise me man........ been there for like 2 days liau........ then after lunch we walk around again........ then we went to a same shop..... walau, i was hoping that they don recognise me man.......... then we walk around a bit more before my dad came and pick me and go pick my mum together........ anaother long day......

then that night itself i got an email from australia....... its about me applying for the university....... well, it seem that they don accept direct entry........ so i may not be going to this uni after all...... well, still have one more uni haven reply me so i hope for the good......... ahahha........

thats all for now........ i wanna get back to sleep..... muacks....

a real life 2 timer.........

2008-08-11T07:31:00.001-07:00

i thought this kind of thing just happens in movie..... well, apparently not........
well, there is this senior i know suppose to have a girlfriend in college......... they both seem very nice together and nothing seem to be stopping them from being together........
well, today i saw him in the canteen...... with another girl........ i thought they are just classmate and they are close friend la....... later do i realise they are actually hugging and very very close with each other...... i was wondering does his girlfriend knows that this is happening......
later a friend told me that this guy has 2 girlfriend at a same time...... that girl that he was with in the canteen is from other college and he brought her in just to be together......... my jaw drop...... i wonder ever anyone tell his girlfriend about this..... even though i know his girlfriend but i don wanna get involve in this kind of stuff.........
i just dont like this kind of guys..... they think they so great, a lot girls after him........ and apparently he accept everyone of them....... that makes me even more dislike him....... argh.... hope i never going to see this kind of situation again......

we are done with it........

2008-08-01T10:58:00.000-07:00

we are done........ well, at least fo now i mean...... its only a sketch modal....... we done our best........ well, have to prepare the presentation on monday and actually i don really have to prepare but then again, feel very scare for my friend......... i had a great time today....... at first we have class with miss michele, she din say a lot of things of my essay........ just some common mistakes........ hmmmmmmmmm.......... maybe because its the last tutorial so maybe she let us go easily....... haha........ well, all along i think she is a nice a person, well, most of the time..... when she is in a good mood she is very nice and smile a lot....... haha......... i won be seeing her next sem so will kinda miss her though.........

today have to finish up our sketch modal....... its a lot of work i have to say....... it takes us the whole day to do it........ my goodness............ it is such a tiring thing to do at least...... everything has to be white and perfect for presentation........ all thanks to jason and the gang....... love them so badly...... the 2 project also have been having these guys as my members........ so good....... hahah.... well, i better get going........ tomorrow is a long day.....

songs that i love..........

2008-07-23T01:17:00.000-07:00

i love Leona Lewis........ her new song is lovely........ love it to the max.......

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be okay

[ Chorus: ]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

How could I could I turn on the TV
When there's something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna let
Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be okay

[ Chorus: ]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you Yes I will

[ Chorus: ]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

late.........................

2008-07-17T04:24:00.000-07:00

first time ever for now.........

I AM LATE FOR CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what the.......... what kind of jam is this man.......... if they do this every single morning, die lor...... sure late to class everyday........... haih.......... faster over la all this problem...........

Pisces Astrology

2008-07-09T01:01:00.000-07:00

lets starts with the basic..........

strengths
compassionate
adaptable
accepting
devoted
imaginative

weakenesses
over sensitive
indecisive
self pitying
lazy
escapist

Deep inside
intuitive and psychic =S
trusts gut feelings =/ - if they don't they learn to coz they realize their hunches are normally right.
Downfall -sensitivity and inability to reject another person
they do not like rejection and try to treat others the way they would like to be treated
like to help other people with problems coz making others feel good makes them feel good
pisces is the zodiac sign of self-undoing
not susceptible to bad luck and unfortunate events
bring them on themselves by over indulging lazyness and the knack of picking poorly suited partners and friends

dating a pisces woman
very captivating and fascinating =S
makes a man feel like a man because of her need for a pretector and leader =/=/=/
charming soft and feminine XD
ultimate enchantress ????
can see right through a man and not easy to fool (yea rite)
man better be straight with her and lead her on coz instead of confronting she will dissappear (listen to this guyssssss)
needs to nurture and will give the man orders but only for his own good (waaaa)
will make sure he is eating properly and gets enough sleep (like mother only..... >.<)
she needs a man to protect and cherish her. make her feel like she is needed and loves ( <3 )
might almost be clingy and dependant but never over bearingly =/ =\
her partner will become a better half.
needs patience and sympathy..
remember to be gentle with her (for any girl la syiohh)
don't poke fun and tease. and DEFINATELY do not reject her harshly coz she can't stand rejection. (again for most girls)
extremely romantic and will lose herself in the relationship. (not all =/ )
ultra feminine nurturer. Ideal woman for the right man ( i dunno what i'm typing anymore... )

Man leh?
(i hope i know what i'm typing now...... )
ultimate romantic & sensitive man who feels with a woman (feel what huh?)
for girls out there who complains guys aren't sensitive enough. this is the one for you.. (XD)
butttt.... his idea of romance is so 'waaaaa' that it's unrealistic and will fall out of love when he realize the perfect woman don't exist.... =/ (sho shadddd...)
he lives in a world of dreams and needs a woman to keep him grounded. (go date a strong woman)
he always chooses the wrong gal out there. (choose wisely)
he needs a dominating woman.. but subtly la. (so dominating girls with tact are the right ones)
must be able to help him steer clear of his bad habits and thoughts (guys are uselessss~ )
pisces man needs sensitivity generosity and compassion. (so girl one....)
nurture him and he will nurtute you back (COOL!)

Erogenous zones
XDXDXDXDXDXDXD
feet are the most sensitive spot.
massaging and sucking on toes are ussually pisces favourites and will get them steamed up and ready for action (WTC!!?!?!?!???!???!??!)

Sex..... shhhhhh......
emotional and physical experience if you allow it, it will be a spiritual experience as well. They're very good and like love role play (sex games... coool)
Acting fully in their roles. Love to seduce.
Love erotic games for they are able to get completely involved and lose themselves in the erotic play.
they like risky encounters and offbeat activities.
a very fun partner who likes diferent encounters and physical sex.

Written by the one who almost took over her laptop once upon a time, Lynne. Hey ya'll! I'm back!!!! Amanda read it though. And apparetnly this is who amanda is... =S=S=S
We got this from today's presentation.. one of the groups were talking bout astrology.
Apparently I'm a loyal passionate resourceful observant and dynamic scorpio who is jealous obsessiv suspicious manipulating and unyielding. My erogenous zone isn't as weird as amanda's... XDXDXD Oh. and apparently most men love being possesed by me (when it comes to dating...)
Dudeee... i have so much to disagree with this stuff!!!! XD =p

blood donation.......

2008-07-06T20:07:00.000-07:00

someone give me an answer....... should i donate my blood.......... my freind here keep insist me to go and do it...... i afraid of the needle since i was small......... no i don wan to go through the trauma la...... the last time i did it was when i got my rashes....... haih..... i still have one more day to think about it though......... haih........ppl.........

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

essay........

2008-07-03T19:26:00.000-07:00

essay is so not my thing........ i cant do it........ i wanna die liau....... this is not happening........ i wanna kill myself if i continue doing this...... wat la........ haih......

i will stop complaining right now and say what is good for me for doing this essay...... well, it lets me to get to know more on the history of malaysia and it gives me the knowlegde that i need to know......... well, maybe i won be able to cope with the designing of a building cause i just cant do it....... i am more to advertising line and do all those graphic thing....... well, thats final........ i am reallt into the graphic thing...... cant wait till do my specialist project...... woohoo.........

projects is killing everyone........

2008-06-30T20:39:00.000-07:00

well, project is killing me of course........ at the same time there is drawing i need to rush on, an assignment i need to write on, a presentation that i need to prepare on..... walau....... this could kill me....... well, i guess that is the life of an artist........

happy go me today...... got good comments from my project lecturer....... and i can move on with my work....... hehe...... love her man........ well that goes to show that i am more of a graphic person than all those drawing and sculpturing...... well, here is one project that i am really proud of.....

well got to go.... see ya guys soon...... muacks.......

argh......

2008-06-24T23:48:00.000-07:00

well, in class again right now........ well, i was suppose to have no class this afternoon, because of some reason on friday then they have to move forward the class to wednesday afternoon..... by now i am at home doing my napping time and also dreaming of getting a dream guy...... but now, all i can dream of is the ASSIGNMENT...... well, i have to get on with it anyway before i pass up late.....

well, i am really bored right now...... and my friend beside me is like using macbook...... i am like..... speechless....... well let me show u a photo how am i doing class.....

mac gal..... i wanna sabo her laptop sooner or later.....

so concentrate...... my wan is 2nd from left....

like selling laptop.....

well, better get back to it...... ahahaha......... before that i wanna show u guys one more thing.....

its such a nice drawing man........ i wanna be like that good also.....

well, got to run...... see ya........

lynne has conquered my laptop!! not

2008-06-22T21:33:00.000-07:00

Please...... lynne is killing me every second of my life........ haha.......
(amanda is lying!!) see...... she is killing me ...... wanna take over my laptop some more...... i think later she will take control of my life....... haih......
(first of all. it's not every second.. more like every other minute. Secondly, I have no interest in Amanda's life coz i have my own... much better one. =) So yea... no interest in hers!!! my life rox so much more Lol!)
oh shut up...... WATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(but i didn't say anything... i'm just typingg... =/ )
its annoying....... i know....... i know how u guys feel...... this is my blog and she is like typing non stop.... as if ppl r interested in her life...... PLEASE........
(who cares if people are interested. the term conquering is taking over... so yea... =/ hahahah I'm sorry people, I'm bugging her life to make mine that little bit more interesting. Wheeeee~ )
haih watever la....... ppl very upset gua no internet access........ ppl start to donate some money for her la...... she will DIE without it...... this is a chain letter...... pass it on...... SHE NEED IT BADLY!!!!!!! QUICK!!!!!!! before its too late........
(BTW. I hope you all realize she's being 'high' and crazy and crapping... =/ Oh. and she forgot how to spell "intenet" a moment agoo.. LOL!!!!! and and and. yea. my sister took away my internet so I don't have any =/ Sighhh the things i do for a little entertainment. i.e. this. )
never mind.... i forgive u....... NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( i din't even say sorry. sweatT!!!!!!)
as u say....... i am high....... i hear things u see.......
(yeaaa... things like kevjumba (this is an advert) on youtube singing SAVE ME on happy slip's page (this is a must see. video title is boypren) and now you're highhhh... >.<)
crap........ i love that song k.... all ur fault k..... ITS ALL UR FAULT, LYNNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I know... *smileeeeeee "Thank you, thank you very much - elvis style)
stupid la..... well, got to run...... see ya guys in the next post.......
(noooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not done disturbing your lifeee.... noooooooooooo....................................................................)
ok ok...... thats it.......

in class

2008-06-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

well, the title says it all....... i am actually in class now and having a hard time doing my assignment..... the class is like so the empty and we all dunno what to do at all...... we just finish our lecture and also tutorial..... next is doing our own work..... well, basically i don know what to do but to online and get some funny videos.....

well, i got to find out this famous youtube person....... he is a trully comedian....... he is chinese but based on US..... so basically he is american chinese..... love him man....... all his jokes are so true and i cant help myself but to laugh....... oh btw, his nick is kevjumba..... go look for him..... he is really good.....

here is one video that i am really impressed....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocRSf9mgdT8

well, got to go..... before she sees me online and blogging........ instead of doing the asignment.... bb... love u all....... muacks.....

californication

2008-06-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

i don know why but this is my next project about..... have to use this songs to make a posters.... but i only got 6 particular lines to do with...... then each sentences have to make a poster..... hmmmmmm..... challenging but i like it... because got to do with graphics and designing in the pc... woohoo..... cant wait..... doing research..... a lot of research have to be done with this project..... without research you cant seem to get anything out of it.......

hmmmmmm...... i have sort of out of idea on what to do...... its so confusing and also depressing at the same time because cant find anything to work with....... for my line is about the world is getting more falseness and also fakeness.... what had happen to the world and what is destroying it....... californication really is a big influences to the world..... everyone seem to follow it..... hmmmm....... any idea what can actually stop this........

we shall do something because it brainwashed us man....... there is one part of the song is actually saying that even though a big natural disaster or just anything, it won change the way californication is..... sound so sad and helpless right...... hope that we can do something before the world is getting worst..... well, i am getting sick of this song because hear it like hundred times today...... i still have 5 more weeks with it so i have to actually listen to it for like 5 more weeks man... this is torture......

keep repeating it non stop in class today..... especially my friend....... on so loud some more..... we all have to listen to it the whole day..... walau eh....... i have to get out of the classroom to look for somewhere else that is more quiet and peaceful...... thats where i found the computer lab...... everyone was so quiet doing their work and research...... i loove it...... i can finally do my work in peace.....

well, thats all from me today..... have to get back to work if not i am so dead.......

super tired.......

2008-06-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

My goodness....... i am super tired today....... when reach college have to go up for the art history class...... feel a bit sleepy....... then after that is self directed........ i rush to finish up touching up my toy/ my project........ finally i am done with it....... but got another project already........ this time is 2-d so more nice and i love doing this project........ its more to graphic things so i am so into it.......

tonight have to find some research for my project..... californication by red hot chili peppers........ i don really like this group but have to find it anyway..... trying to enjoy the process of it...... well, i guess i have to get back to work before i fall alseep on my laptop.........

took this photo in the morning....... the sky is so nice...... haih....... hope i can see it everyday......

Happy Father's Day!!!!!!!!

2008-06-15T07:51:00.000-07:00

Its so sweet when children sing and the father was so happy......... i felt so sick, after hearing the angels voices, my heart melted and it really make my day........ see how powerful it is a childrens love........ they just simply sweet and really...... i do not know what word to put in...... i just love them.... it also shows how much i love my niece........ she is so cute...... she don know anything about the world yet....... only eat, sleep and play........ awe....... i wanna be her again........

now i have tons of things to do..... but everytime i see my niece, all my tiredness all gone...... so good to have a baby in the house....... well, its been a great day today..... i have a lot of laughter today... well, maybe jusy because happen to many funny sftuff........ been making jokes with friends, talk nonsense, suddenly got high and non stop laughing....... they thought i went mad..... aahahhha...... i thought i was too...... well, maybe just not enough sleep lar har....... sometimes when i have not enough sleep i either get high or very down....... my friend say i am abnormal because i dunno how to be normal........

his normal means don have to laugh or feel down...... just normal........ for me i cant....... i either laugh or cry...... my mood swings like madness wan....... sometimes good then suddenly become bad..... haih.. well, thats me...... i change it....... but i cant....... i will try my best to be normal k...... ahahahahah......

finally i am done with my first project for my second sem........ huh..... a sign of realive.... but not for long..... my second wan is coming tomorrow......... argh...... so freaking fast the second wan liau...... well, i guess thats arts....... there will be never ending projects........ well, i am still getting use to it...... i know i can do it........ I WILL SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!! :p

i guess thats all from me now...... i wanna get some rest after a very long day........
tata

woohoo......

2008-06-14T00:08:00.000-07:00

yay......

a new blog for me blah everything out...... i guess i will come here more often because not many ppl know about this blog and i can say anything i wan without ppl feeling offensive.....

well wanted another blog for a very long time.. finally got one and i will appriciate it..... well, now just blogging of my life....... nowadays very busy with my project and all..... kinda enjoying what i am doing now if not.... i have quit a long time ago....... well at least i am paying more attention than the time i am in school....... maybe because i am stuudying something that i really love......

arts just come to mind when i was in form 5..... really thought of doing physcology but then again its a very tough subject..... when i start to realise i am very into art then only i thought of graphic... i like spending my time in front of the pc and edit photos and all..... i even try to make slide show out of it.. and i will be doing that for my sisters wedding(i guess)....... cant wait......

well, my sis is getting married....... i was happy for her at the same time i am sad....... happy because she is getting married and sad because my sis is leaving this show........ i am so going to miss her presence her in the house... her smile, her lauhgter........ stupid things we sometimes do together.... all the fights that we have..... i AM SO GOING TO MISS ALL THAT!!!!!!!!

love ya che!!!!!!!!!

and always will....... :p